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It was Paxgitmo's idea.
These are all my own faves, the ones that would all be proudly featured if I ran the world.
Yes I do like myself a lot~
I think I'm depressed.
I have no energy, I can't seem to drag myself out of bed,all I do is go to work, come home, watch TV, worry about how I'm not getting enough sun & exercise ... I haven't seen my crush in almost a month ...
When I leave for work I think, I'm gonna take a long walk or go out on my bike later ... then when I'm done work, I can't think of anything but flopping down on the couch. & then I eat too much.
This is nothing new ... frankly I have been depressed my whole life. The first 25 years were the worst ... then I bit the bullet and started taking antidepressants and thank the Gods they worked, because I have now had almost 10 pain-free years in which to do the things I want to do in life.
I almost don't recognize depression when I get it now. Now, I just get normal-people's depression: a few weeks of low energy & motivation. It's so different from the harsh depression I used to have every single day that I sometimes don't deal with it like the problem it is ... after all, the pills still work, it doesn't hurt, I'm just bored is all, etc etc. Meanwhile the summer passes me by.
When I leave for work I think, I'm gonna take a long walk or go out on my bike later ... then when I'm done work, I can't think of anything but flopping down on the couch. & then I eat too much.
This is nothing new ... frankly I have been depressed my whole life. The first 25 years were the worst ... then I bit the bullet and started taking antidepressants and thank the Gods they worked, because I have now had almost 10 pain-free years in which to do the things I want to do in life.
I almost don't recognize depression when I get it now. Now, I just get normal-people's depression: a few weeks of low energy & motivation. It's so different from the harsh depression I used to have every single day that I sometimes don't deal with it like the problem it is ... after all, the pills still work, it doesn't hurt, I'm just bored is all, etc etc. Meanwhile the summer passes me by.
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well, I am mostly happy these days ... but it doesn't pay to fake it when you're not!
YES! that is what I need!
What kind of exercise do you enjoy? I can usually motivate myself to do something other than just sit in front of the computer or waste time not really accomplishing anything by reminding myself how good I feel after having worked out. Just grab your mp3 player and DO SOMETHING!
I just read something on Science Daily about depression and how it peaks in the summer for some people...something about the combination of staying indoors with hot sun outside makes mild depression worse. It's true, I think we need to burn up our carbs regulating our own body temp, but that's just me.
Depressed or not, you have articulated your feelings perfectly.
and then I do whirlwinds of housework and dance in my livingroom until I feel better!~
Pax, you definitely help, just by taking the time to drop me a comment while I am sitting here thinking "nobody even likes me, they all think I am a loser, I should just quit, etc etc." so thank you!
and yes, my depression does seem to peak in summer! for example, every year I think I would love to have a big birthday bash for myself, but never get organized enough to actually do it ... and I am so tempted to sleep while it's hot and sunny outside ... just enjoy the coolth of my apartment while everyone else is running around getting brown ...
it sucks to be struggling with something like that and nobody understands what it is. it can take years off your life. it's great that we both found something that works ... some are not so lucky.